5 months till i get these metal bands of hell off my teeth! :D

and wah. i didnt fall down this time and my left ankle is inflamed like crap. :(:(:( why like that. i want to play drums eh. haha

i've been clearing out the stacks and boxes of paper i've had since i've moved to this house. about six years worth. and i go through it sheet by sheet then put it through the shredder. i've done 5 garbage bags full since last week. anyway. the reason i go through the stacks sheet by sheet is cos every now and then i stumble across a nice letter or drawing.. and you won't believe what i just found. lol.
a very detailed plot to drop a water snail into my primary 6 chinese teacher's hair. hahaha. wth. no wonder i failed throughout my years in mg primary. this is what i was doing. okay jit, now i kinda get why you hate your students :P

i feel like my brains are coming out of my nose x( today kass' gesturing arm and my nose accidentally collided with each other. alot of pain and blood all over the raffles convention centre floor ensued. then it stopped then it started again. i just got home, showered. and it started and wont stop! cries. someone help me? i dont want to die.

I went for dinner with mum to via venito tonight. Very good food. Very very cute chef. Heh. when we get home my bro opens the door for us and I notice a pair of girl's shoes that obviously do not belong to any of us. (let's just say I'm trying not to judge a person by their uh..shoes) and he asks if he can use the tv ( he's well trained like that) and he says it's cos he has a friend over. Heh. then I go "WAH. GOT GIRL OVER AH!!!!!" then I start to make loud kissy cheekopek noises. Heh heh heh. xD I didn't know she was standing on the other side of the door x( she was the one me, kass and dinesh saw him with at starbucks by the way, the one that looks like Miss you-know-who.

Well at least he got his friend to download grey's for me :) yay. Can't wait to get it
Spoiler if you want to watch!

Had a job interview at kumon today. I hope the fact that I'm in clb isn't a problem x( and I filled my form up in red ink cos I didn't have a blue pen. And I didn't fill in the dates in the right format. Nor did I spell 'assistant' correctly the first time x( x( x( it's not my fault! It was 10am in the morning! x( oh wells. shall just wait and see if they call back
I think I shall go enroll myself in some conversational mandarin course. Damnit.

So if kumon doesn't hire me I'm quite keen on waitressing at Melvados. It pays quite well and it's usually empty. It's nearby and the food, music and ambience is very cool :) hoho. Too bad kumon coronation isn't hiring. If not I'd just do both jobs and walk home at night :)

Attempted to visit ALEX TAI as well. OMG! He told me the operation was at 11am. So me and teng went at like 7pm. And the lady was like, "he's in the O.T." I almost fainted. Hahah I thought his op was like 8hrs :O :O :O so anywayyy. Turns out the stupid boy gave me wrong info. So we went around hunting for his ward to leave a balloon for him. But his bed was taken up by another patient. The nurses told us what his girlfriend was wearing (turns out they gave wrong colour T_T) and we spent 2hrs walking around with a spongebob balloon looking for her x( needless to say I don't know what she or his family members look like. whine whine whine. I have a blister on my feet.
Gave up in the end. and on my way home I run into marv! ZOMG. Haha. and he gave me her number. But no point already. I always run into marv. Too coincidental and quite disconcerting lol.

I caught 'my fair lady' last night. It was quite boring x( not one of the better musicals I've seen. Think the costumes and the dances weren't very fun to watch at all.

the day before was my first drum lesson which was fun! he says I learn fast :) yay. I learnt how to crash already. hahaha. so exciting. Except that everytime I do I get so scared of the noise I squeeze my eyes shut x( I'm such a noob.

I just finished watching grey's anatomy season2 and I'm going to die because I want the next season now now now now now. the only one I know who has it is gwee but it was too much trouble for him to give to me. -rolls around on the floor- the suspense is keeeeeeeeeeeliiiinngggg meeeeeeeeee.

i love fusion, it's always like some huge methodist reunion thing. get to see people from mg and ac, people i met at camp, even others that helped out a few years ago.
they decided to make it a 2 day conference this year. i shan't elaborate on the whole powerpoint lyrics situation cos i will start to ramble about people. let's just say i never knew how hard it would be to do. to click line by line of the songs especially in a hall full of 3000 people to watch you screw up x( and when the band doesn't follow the song order or they decide to repeat a chorus or something. hard for a perfectionist to do.
after night rally had supper at nydc. they're elphan-something-or-other was really good :D i like.

had to be at suntec by 8am on day 2 x( screwed up the morning worship really badly. managed to pop into the drum worskhop. hadn't even started my first drum lesson yet but it was a good experience, really enjoyed it :) then it was night rally again. hurhur. i pwned that one! :D

worship by Youth Alive at all 3 worship sessions was AMAZING. really sucked that i was too stressed to enjoy it or even stand up. i started getting a bit annoyed cos all the adults kept telling me not to be stressed, even when i wasn't after awhile or at least i tried not to show it. i was thinking ' if you don't want me to be stressed, why ask me to do x( ' it's not my fault i'm an easily stressed person x( haha. but i don't regret helping out though :) it's just something i like to do. and thank god i had jill and ian around to help me :)

since i did such a "fantastic" job for the conference pastor alvin asked me to go to wesley the next morning to help do the slides since their songs are relatively new to our sunny little island and i knew them the best. grarr. wake up at 7am x( x( haha but thankfully francis was kind enough to pick me up. so service at wesley. more technical glitches and reformatting x( x( bugger.

rest of the day was spent with the band. brought them to toa payoh for chicken rice. haha. it was a funny sight, cos all the angmohs were using chopsticks and stuff while the rest of us were using forks and spoons x)and who could ever forget the drop bears
they went back to the hotel to rest while me, ian and pastor alvin went back to ttp.
picked them up again. went shopping in town :D i didn't buy anything! lol. adidas was having 50% off too! x( karlee got a nice jacket there.she was a blast, fun to shop with and she kept trying to make ian dance and make us go out together. oh oh haha and karl got scouted to be a underwear model. hahaha. had kaya toast and half developed chicken embryos to quote pastor alvin x( between him telling them these things, and reg telling them that satay is dog meat... tsk tsk.

then it was on to the night safari :) only went round once on the tram. then wanted to catch the creatures of the night show but it started to rain 5 minutes after it started x( x(

last stop! adam road hawker centre! more food. ack. i ended up packing my char kway teow. then i left it somewhere. i still think it's in the church van x(

so that was my fusion 2007 experience :) tiring but absolutely worth it

wa. i really wanna work at the zoo or night safari man! after visiting on sunday night with everyone. haha. just reminded me of how much i love the place. haha. so i was checking out the website, maybe i should hurry up and get my class 3 drving licence then i can be a tram driver!! hahahahah. damn funny.

i know i was supposed to help out with ACRES and they do have a big fundraising coming up in april.. but but.. i dunno eh. i can't bring myself to help them yet, they're getting rid of our polar bear :(

heh. i got up at 4pm today xD between fusion2007 on friday and saturday (where i realised what a powerpoint noob i was) and bringing Youth Alive around our not-so-sunny island yesterday, i am stuffed full of local food (have also rediscovered my love for roti bom. yum yum.) and also thoroughly wiped out. that is what a days of waking up at 7am and only going home at 1am will do to you.

the band members were really an awesome exuberant bunch and were so much fun to hang out with. although they seemed to think me and iaaaan were dating. and when they found out we weren't they tried to make something happen. seems like the suanning transcends national barriers ack.

proper update later. i think i'll go bum around :D haha.

I popped into Daiso today. and they sell this instant cake mix thing. so I bought it to try. And it's like WAO D: hahaha. you pour the powder into a mug. Add an egg. Stir it around. put it in the oven for a minute and BAM! Instant cake! Damn exciting- my life is complete.

break and take it with a smile
- bend and not break. dashboard confessional

I hope the first week of the year isn't any indication to what the rest of the year will be like. (for me, and for some of us)
I've had enough untangling and confrontations (if you call it that) and changes and confessions and alcohol and promises and openness and clarifying and declarations and emoness to make my head explode.

Yay. Crashed orientation on Thursday! In our secondary school uniforms. Hehe. I even disrupted lao shi's class x(

yay. Bandung :D haha.

this is how ee ghim spends his last few days of freedom. Haha. anyway excuse the obvious fact that my pinafore looks funny. I had to pin it at the top cos I went to keep the uniform that was too large for me x(
dee!

lol. odd mix of uniforms, I know.

Friday was all FRIENDS.Barcadimakesmytummywarm.OC.Phone conversationsandcheesecake.
Jo, kass and pamy crashed my place on Friday night, initially wanted to have it after Golden Country at Kass' on Saturday so we could drink at clarke quay after the show but Friday was more convenient I guess. yay. Watched Friends till 5am (at least I did anyway :P) and slept till 10am x( it seems that the later I sleep, the earlier I wake up. meh. I would have gone the whole night if I didn't have other stuff to do on Saturday. Watched some OC the next day, headed down to church. and wow. its been 5 years since the first service :O I feel old. Then it was on to fisherman's wharf for dinner :D hehe. I like many many. Went to watch Golden Country. on the whole it was really good. highly effective in traumatizing. Albeit a bit long. I'm a restless soul.

had to take a pic with the guys before they have to lose their hair x) leobert and ghim are going in soon so yea. Haha. -salutes- to you both :) all the best.
[and if you're reading this constable, notice how I had to bend down so I won't block you x) hehehehe. I am tall.]

Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
- How to save a life. The fray

Yea. I watched a Chinese movie. It was like a soap. A Chinese soap. Haha. I like. Throughout the show I was either going 'omgwtf', 'eek' or laughing my ass off. Plus it was actually quite pretty to watch
My brother said I bring disappointment and shame to the family. Actually, I learnt how to sing a jay chou song yesterday too x(

Oh and I've got a new food addiction: the fried wantan from the shop on the topfloor at heeren. yumyum.

not having to go back to school also feels fantastic! and like leon's msn nick says, no need to rush last minute holiday homework :D

i think i'll go start on my grey's anatomy nowww...

Mood aside, the beginning of 2007 hasn't been all that bad. Got home at about 11am and went to sentosa to check out houses yesterday. Met some church people for dinner. Apparently there was a nice rainbow in the sky, missed it unfortunately, I didn't even look out the window :(

Today ruth stopped by to see me :) then we went to town. And I ran into adeeee!!!!! Zomg. Pleh. One of those friendships that drifted apart cos we were in different schools and were always so busy.

Then I met the girls. Went to sing karaoke. Hahaha haven't gone since that time at the legends with the church people... but therapeutic nonetheless. Left to catch a performance by the bay with ian and ran into sam and letitia there. Arrived back in town just as they finished karoke-ing. Haha sleazy Party World is quite fun.

I bought 'Fragile Things' by Neil Gaiman at the kino sale! and I just got cute magnetic puppy bookmarks for christmas too :D yay. yes you read right, i bought a book and i like it.

Okay I think I can finally leave the house without looking like such an utter mess. lol

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

mehh. i think i've turned into some major insomniac. i haven't slept since last year :P. haha. seriously. and i've got eyebags and all. but i'm not sleepy!

i don't think i'll elaborate much on my new year's eve. but i would like to say that i love all my friends who i was with and who called many many many many.

oh. and, retribution is a bitch

and on that lovely note, happy new year (:

It's not a question
But a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

I was reading my entry for exactly one year ago, was trying to check if I kept my resolutions but as it seems, I didn’t make any.

I was really looking forward to 2006, and I was right. it might have been the most taxing in terms of brain cells and emotions but I still had fun (: and who could possibly say that it wasn’t exciting eh?

New year’s eve two years ago was confusing. New year’s eve last year was agonizing. I wonder what this year will be like

So anyway by this time next year:
I would have my braces off!
I would have pulled my bowling score up to a 200
I would have gotten on a plane
I would have done my QT and stupid eye vision thing almost every day
I would know how to drive
And cook over flames
And play the drums
tried to be on time

You can breathe, you can breathe now
You can breathe, but the air is running out on you

i wish you'd stop thinking that everything's okay when it's evidently not. but i suppose it doesn't matter.

And it's my fault because I don't like a person thinking that something is wrong between us, even though there is, and I just smile and take it. (I read somewhere that doing that is unhealthy, but i'm not quite sure) And pretend that everything's okay. Cause I believe that I will just forgive them and let everything go eventually. And it always happens. i'm surprised i'm not severely emo yet.

(disclaimer: this is not always true, i know i've blown up at people more than a few times over these past 2 years. just that this situation happens more often)

I mean, why let them know something is wrong. then they make me talk about it. then they apologise then they get upset that I got upset. and I am more sensitive than average so sometimes it's just me overreacting. Then in the I forgive them also what. same outcome. so why go through all the mess. i suppose this is a lesson i've learnt from mg, cause when i was there i always used to get angry really easily.

I think I've gotten good at pretending. It keeps everyone happy, except me, i get sad for awhile, and I'm fine with that, as long as there's someone else on the line to listen. (So maybe i do have an outlet) Sigh. Non confrontational, as always.

so yes. smile and pretend it's all okay. that is not to say that i am fake and everyone shouldn't take things regarding me for face value.

that was general rant i.e. to any paranoid person reading this, do not panic, i'm not talking about you.

i still haven't written my cards. let alone gotten half the addresses i need. i am fully aware christmas is over.

let's waste time
chasing cars
around our heads

i hope that it doesn't rain today. please don't rain! i have to go to chinatown to find a shop that i've never seen in my life. go for dental. meet ruth. finish christmas shopping. come home. change. go out for dinner. attempt to go to DXO with jo and pork chop to watch seth play. then come home and finish writing my christmas cards. ho ho ho indeed. i need to learn how to drive

Nothing quite like something you’re procrastinating about doing (i.e. writing christmas cards) to make you do something else you’ve also been procrastinating about ( i.e. clearing up the closet)

Two days into this very busy week and I'm already tired. Haha. yesterday I went out with jill who just got back from the land down under, then huron and his friends, then I met gwee who also just got back but from denial, haha I mean the nile in Egypt. Ooh. And I also managed to watch Eragon! Haha. I want a dragon! Someone buy me a dragon! i thought walking in the slight drizzle was bad enough. which did not prepare me for...

Today which was worse!. I met alex(when had a nice skinny tie). and WHO ALSO HAD KRISPY KREMES OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. Haha. cos his sister went to HK. Yay. I love (: it's funny, everyone either kept staring at the plastic bag, or approached him to ask if they've opened an outlet here.

then met up with jo and thea. And ian also. Haha. a bit weird la. different friends from all over the place. We even met mike and mel for dinner! Haha.

oh oh. while waiting for lex I saw a bird sorta turned over and dying in the bushes. And I was SO SAD. but didn't dare to touch it. then when he came and I wanted to go back outside and see it was raining cats and dogs so I couldn't get to it. I was almost gonna run out with my umbrella to shelter the poor thing :( when I walked past later it wasn't there anymore, I hope that it was just lying down to take a rest or something.

almost done with present shopping. then i realized i didn't clear my presents list for church people :( hopefully i can grab stuff while shopping with my mum tmw.

i think i may die of heartache. i sat with buffy for 3hrs today and he just kept looking at me with these helpless eyes while he was kinda breathing funny. mum came home. we brought him to the vet and apparently he had a heart attack and got liquid in his lungs. so he had to be hospitalised. and he's always really scared especially when my mum isn't around. and he's so old. i'm really really scared eh. i think i wasn't even this afraid during A's. i fear. i fear he may (heaven forbid) die. and he'll be alone. omg. that's even worse. i can't say the word i want to cos i'm in church now and uh. i fear that the projection system may come on. and yes.

this cannot be happening. he's my babyyyy and he's been with me through everything. sigh. i think i'll sit in the unit for all the visiting hours. beats staying at home crying my eyes out about what may happen.

before we left my mum told me ' he'll pull through, he always does' but he's 14 eh. and i don't think she believed herself either :( she was crying too.

and now i'm trying to hide myself behind the computer screen cos i reallllly don't want anyone to see me crying. ah damn

there's something wrong with Buffy. he seems to listless x( oh no. my heart. it breaks.

prom was a blast but im glad it's over. and i was too tired to run around and take alot of photos and look for people and to even smile properly x( even then, both my batteries went flat. i sad sad. but oh well. proper update another time. i wanted to blog about A levels but i hane't done that either.

santa has been visiting regularly, my threadless shirts came in today and my ipod came in a few days ago. i looove it. it's so pretty and SHOCKING RED. plus the exclusivity of having one is also a bonus point :D

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset
-boston. augustana.

(:

today was the first time in a long long long long loooooooong while that I sat down and thought about everything that life has blessed me with. Not everything's perfect I guess (no, I'm not referring to my fiasco of a dress. Okay, now that it stays up it's not so bad) but hey, things WILL work themselves out. For me and for everyone else. Sure I may not act or sound like I believe that more than half of the time but when I'm not being hit by one of life's curveballs I guess a part of me knows that (cliche alert!) everything happens for a reason and while I may not realise why things are the way they are now somewhere down the line I'll understand. Hopefully.

I would like to echo and reiterate everyone's sentiments of late : I HATE PROM.

warning:whining ahead!

My dress is too long. I wanted a short dress and instead I ended up with a flouncy floor length one which I can barely move around in. I have to be all ladylike and lift it up when I ascend staircases. It makes me look fat. Please don't tell me to shut up. okay. fatter than usual. coz it bunches and ruffles at the middle part. But that I can deal with. However, it keeps bloody falling down because other than my lack of assets, it has five layers! And hence is incredibly heavy. So it weighs itself down. I'm gonna have to get like thing plastic string tied onto it so that I can hold it up.. it won't show in photos but ee. so ugly.

So jo? why do you have a dress you abhor so much?
Because it didn't look that bad in the photo.
NEVER ORDER DRESSES ONLINE. OMG.
I must learn to listen to people when they tell me to get it TAILORED.

On the bright side, at least I have pretty shoes. Guuuh.

Sigh this sucks. It really does.

i may have to dedicate the next four days to shopping cos i still haven't finished prom shopping x( shopping anyone? :(

All the stars and boulevards ain't close enough for you.

Tomorrow (later today actually) I WILL
-Drag my lazy ass out of the house to go with nigel to sign up for driving lessons.
-Go do something about my fringe and possibly figure out what the hell I am going to do with my hair for prom.
- Go for a swim if it's sunny (damn rain.)
-Build a bench.
-Put up some lanterns on the tree outside.
-Go to school to collect my paper mache egg/bat
-Go for dinner at holland village and NOT get tipsy at eskibar.

I found bling champagne coloured stilettos in the cupboard today. Wonder if they'll go with my dress x( but anyway they're 3inches tall! And I can usually run in my 2inch heels.. but I don't know. I do have a track record for falling down and I would like to not bust an ankle again on prom night (I think I'd better pack my ankle guard just in case) so maybe I'll just totter around the house in them for the next few days :( my god I'm sad. I have to practice walking.

IT IS SO RETARDED AND CUTE RIGHT?! go to ubisoft's website for more :D Dancing demented bunnies. It's like this game was made for me.

mm. I want loco roco for the PSP and rayman: raving rabbids for the Wii. But I don't want to just buy a Wii to play the game :( gods. I'm such a tech geek. Oh. apple released 8GB RED NANOS this week. Love! haha. am silencing the conscience and buying it, using the upsetting exams as justification, oh and the fact that my pimped pod DIED

A bulk of my major papers are over. Phew. And I survived. Barely. One paper after the other. My dormant brain is not used to functioning this frequently.

Staying in school to study has been fun. the thought of going home before 9pm is now incomprehensible. We do tons of retarded stuff, like playing twister, having picnics by the bleachers and being attacked by biting ants, having starch fights and studying of course. Everyone else I study with have tons of papers next week. I hope they all survive and don't spontaneously burst out into tears :(

So since I've got a bit more free time in school I'm making a paper mache bat ( followed by a fish and blob if I have time) he's made out of my math notes, and shall be named "the count" heheh. Get it? :D I feel so brilliant. Other than that when I'm at home, I can't think of anything else to do but study and organize my itunes. especially since my dad won't hand over all my new DVDs :( Wah. no life alert!

Also, I'm on a get fat campaign again. I lost about 2 kg over the past 2 weeks. I think I've got sunken cheekbones already. gack. Cannot. Must eat. gain weight. at least now I have time to eat (: I ended up trying to eat and shower some times during this week cos I was really severely short of time x( sigh. once a last minute mugger, always a last minute mugger.

and smiling cause I'm scared as hell
--1983. john mayer

it doesn't help that i have the attention span of a goldfish. or perhaps less than x(

signs that one has slightly lost it:
going to ntuc and breaking their merchandise x( accidentally of course. i broke a glass bottle of some ginseng drink
listening to mulan songs with everyone else and laughing till we can't breathe and end up sitting on the carpark floor
singing ' KISS THE GiRL' everytime someone else talks to someone of the opposite sex
reciting lyrics to 'can you feel the love tonight' when the same thing happens, 'i can see what's happening what? and they don't have a clue who? they'll fall in love and that's the bottom line..... etc etc..
sitting at the bleachers and singing 'chasing cars' while interfering with other things.
adventures to the sports complex!
major major major illogical suanning
hyperventilating. crying. screaming. dancing around. standing on chairs. sleeping on benches and the like.

yup. the start of the A's is in a day.

Today was the first time I really listened to the lyrics to 25 minutes by Michael learns to rock. First song that ever made me cry. It's so heartbreaking.

*
Coincidences and irony are really funny things

*
Time heals all wounds they say. I've learnt the hard way that some hurt never really goes away. I wish it would. But as always, talking about it still makes me cry. the heart wrenching aching kinda tears. It's like opening a box full of sorrow. alas, some things must be said.

*
Bunch of us sat at the bleachers today. nice weather. great company (: nice to have friends to share all this crap with, seems like everyone's going through some form of crap nowadays. We just sat there in the dark listening and singing along to emo/ soppy songs. It was quite therapeutic I must say. Ought to do it more often

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
this bites. i sadsad :'(
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYW WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY DO WE HAVE TO TAKE EXAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMSSSSSSSS.
ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

And I said hey, boy
What you crying for?
It'll be okay in the end
And if this life doesn't give you the love you expect
There's always the next
-soldier. Anna nalick.

Sigh. I've never felt this crummy in months. been walking around with a stuffed up nose, swollen eyes, have been told that I look 'grey' and 'pallid' severely unglam! I can't wait for wednesday. Bunch of us want to go sit in the bleachers in the dark and be emo. (doesn’t help that I'm scared of the dark x()

Being ill (yes, AGAIN, everytime I skip on the vitamins for a few days..*bam*), being stressed and pmsing (the generic excuse) all at the same time does not bode well with the emotional stability of one's mind. I hate it when I do it, you know I do. Having things occupying and jumbling my thoughts up when I'm trying to memorise t-formulas and functions of mitochondria is not good either. Thank god at least my aunt's operation went swimmingly well today <3 that's one less thing to worry about.

Guess I have to try harder to look for the silver lining in everything (: like friends who get me through %^$*^#$@* messed up times like this

You haven't seen the world outside for days
You sleep, you hope, you wait
Imagination disappears
And all the dreams you have you save
Confrontation like a mirror
They try to take your mind away

I don't know, but I believe in yesterday
And what it means
To bleed and know that you're okay

Are you waiting?
No matter what you say
No matter what you do
No matter what, I'm always right there behind you

Our Lady Peace.

i'm quite an ipod addict ah! haha. but it's flaming red!( same excuse i used for getting another motorola razr)unfortunately it only comes in 4gb. not enough space for all my music. BUT IT'S REDDDDD. wah. 4gb+4gb=8gb! that's it! i shall buy two! pfft. like my conscience will allow it. i shall just be content with my pimped orange pod (: serves it's purpose. can't hurt to lust after this one though ;) plus! it's for a good cause too!

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aww take me back to the start
-the scientist. coldplay

NEON.

mich who takes great joy in subtly suanning me

shu. (shoe!)

eeghim. haha. don't ask me what he's doing.

(j) robyn x) hehe. i love you rob. don't kill me plz.

jilljill.

sheeyong.

broke back association meets gay tham association

sc8 and 9 boys. spidermen. lol.

krish.

with sabbers crabbers and lc.

CHOPS! haha. chicken chop, lamb chop and pork chop. clement, me and huron. my most random friends ever

gwee. paparazzi-ed! lol.

we should have moved that outreach tea sign x( some drama fruits with madam (:

david. finally a photo without him making a face. well.. sorta.

part of my clb class (:

jo n jo

the only one i get to call 'small one'. haha. thea.

new meaning to airhead! hehe. kass!

pamy.

but of course, an incomplete class photo

with ms lin

some girls in class with our funky math teacher.

meix and i

darius! finally someone who doesn't have to bend down to take a shot with me xP

jit and jill

yuwei the voyeur xP

pbert.

jit

hengpei

lurvveebirds ;)

we got bored waiting for the bus.

lc in his natural habitat

haha. unglam leon.

only class outing with more than half the class EVER

my family in america sent me 3 hugeass bags of cheetos for my birthday!!! :D haha. my favourite-est. i love.

in other news. i just realised today, with just 2 more days of school left. that i have been wearing my uniform incorrectly all the while.

and i'm on my third course of antibiotics in 2 months. this cannot be very good for the body :(

fallin' to pieces everytime.

today i...
met george the gwape.

anddd earlier on my mum called me to ask me smth and i told her i had an ulcer on my tongue. 5 minutes later. she messages me:
it's a wart, jo. stop kissing frogs
she's a strange one!

i've been eating non stop today :(

everynow and then you need to walk around and pretend to be a pirate. haha. that's nigel. we're both born on 'talk like a pirate' day (:

buy out ntuc. yum (: brainfood.

drive away from my car crash of a heart
- mixtape. butchwalker

thanks pumpkinhead! (:

random thought: the good thing about being short is that you can wear your long skirts as dresses! not that i do. but it's just a thought (: heh. i'm weird.

i've started being violent again. by that i mean hitting guys and threatening to kill people. must stop must stop. not to say whoever i go threaten does not deserve it!!! grumbles. just kidding. anyway. yes. you'll get yours. all of you! muahaha. >:D you will be pwned for your suan-age. no0bs. hur hur. [oh god. now i'm typing like a boy. x(]

okay the entries on this page were not really added in running order. so scroll down for more photos (:

i didn't fall down on stage! three cheers for me! service was so boring. thea and i were starving. and cold. and pathetic. haha. jill decided to scream ' jo loves you' when a certain boy went on stage. but i got my revenge. and i got it good. it was the funniest thing ever. haha. her mother was talking to qunicy and i decided to go.. um... give them a push in the right direction. heheheheh. but i shall let the photos do the talking.

oh by the way. i got DAMN pissed off when i came home and saw the photos. cos my hair had to be pinned back for the ceremony. so when i took of the pins it kinda looked stringy and funny as you can see. sigh. i finally have nice nice straight hair and it turns out like crap in the photos.and i apologise, i'm being vain. but it really did make me quite sad :(

clb buddies!

jit and haz.

lc and haz again. you know i didn't know he was behind me in all those photos. stupid boy.

yuwei!

gwee!

somewhere deep. VERY DEEP DOWN INSIDE i still love you guys.

heehee. i made them take that. but before you all start gossiping. THERE IS NOTHING GOING ON BETWEEN THEM.

krish!

sheeyong. math god. and jo. math failure.

thea, jit and kass! (:

thea!

kass!

So the birthday. I was kinda too tired to enjoy it. my teachers and friends all kept saying I looked frazzled and exhausted. Sigh. I didn’t even get to take any photos.
but many many thanks and hugs and love to the people who remembered and wished me and got me stuff ( like hard gay toys[pls check youtube if you don't know what I'm talking about, or it will sound very very wrong], bimbo pens, chick lit, chick flicks, books about spots, nutella, boy toys, diaper bags and milk bottles and penguin stuff and tiaras and bracelets and alcohol and plasters and headphones and bimbo pens and chocolate and I'm sorry if I forgot anything x() and mailed me letters and made/drew me things :) I love.

Towards the end of the day my brain stopped functioning and hence, I started to talk like a boy. Someone asked me what stocking colour I was wearing. With the intention of saying "I'm wearing the shade of nude" it came out as "I'm nude" other things that I could be heard saying were "I'll show you mine if you'll show me yours" (with reference to court shoes) and " come on, justtake it all off la" (with reference to jit's multitude of earrings) yes. without the references they sounded quite wrong to a passerby x( sigh.

Honour's night rehearsal didn't go too well either. I borrowed shoes till I could get a pair that could fit. So I pretty much kinda walked strangely on stage. AND forgot to take the 'certificate' from the 'guest of honour' and I sorta did my ditz run back to him when I realized it. sigh.. I could hear eeghim laughing from across the hall la. haha. idiot.

I think we ended too late so most people couldn't go to Harry's for that mandatory drink I was supposed to have. so I went home with the mum :) coz she was cooking for the p.a.t. that night. so was kass' and gwee's mum. Haha such a coincidence. But yes. now I'm eighteen. And legal! And I can drink. Watch out world

yum.

Today I could finally drink cold drinks and eat fried food. Well I'm coughing a bit now but it was worth it man. whoo.. bandung, chocolate, cheezels and fried stuff. talk about overkill after recovering. Well half my food gets confiscated once I start coughing x( but yes. take what I can get. And no one will admit that I sound like a sexy man when I've got a sore throat :(

I just made some WHITE CHOCOLATE FUDGE to boot. It's yum. But awfully sweet. i think i added an extra cup of sugar x( It was quite terrible yesterday because I wanted to make it but had only half the ingredients for that. Likewise for cheesecake. So I made yoghurt. Wah. this making dessert things is quite therapeutic (:

Results out tomorrow :( we're all going to island creamery after to drown our sorrows after. I have been wanting to try the nutella ice cream since gwee told me about it. hopefully it doesn't make the cough worse. But I really don't care. haha.

Uhm. Full dress rehersal for honour's night is on my birthday. but you all have probably heard me whine about this. Oh roar. I was gonna have a party or at least troop down to island creamery then go back to the studio to mug x( nevermind. guess at least I'll still get to spend it with people I love! even though we will all be suffering in the LT/hall being blasted for improper shoes and not bowing properly and such.

I've been acting sillier than usual, not on purpose, I don't know why and I'd like it to stop. I mean I answer phones and go 'hello?' a couple of times before realizing I didn't press the receive button ( although actually on my phone I shouldn't need to). I keep dropping things and falling down. (okay, the falling down bit is because the ankle seems to be giving way. Thank god for ankle guards). mehh.

Oh I went around reciting this quote to people in school today
love is not about finding someone you can live with.
It's about finding someone you can't live without
I had more people making barfing noises and rolling their eyes than the more desired swoon or sigh :(

.. i got new glasses of course! 8) to be a geek, one must look like one. although. i think that since they're lime green frames with white sides i'll look more like a bug x( hehe.

so school's starting. And I'm scared as hell but I shall try to silence that voice at the back of my head.
So if you see me around school. I should look like this:

Or this:

upon occasion I will lose it and start doing random things like
trying to bite food in such a way that it forms the first letter of what it's formed from

creating replicas of monuments from biscuits

making really bad jokes

spontaneous whale/fish imitations

ocd-ing and being a science geek with m&ms

or we will find free tattoos that allow us to proudly declare that we are 'made in singapore' at the zo card stand and proceed to brand all the inhabitants of the void deck with it.

And if I start to cry
Give me a straw hat and an orange

and I should be all smiles again (:

if you'd like to get me something for my birthday...

i need plasters for my first aid box :( or scar removal cream. a few days ago i woke up and i had this 5cm slash across my calf x( now i just cut my thumb plugging in my charger. the blood is bright red. it is quite cool.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
--dream a little dream of me. michael buble.

Prelims are over. And it's party time baby! i had a fever and a cough but i didn't really care. so here's the breakdown of my wonderful one week (or so) of playing (:

tuesday. twentyninthaugust. Technically I've still got clb tomorrow but that's not really the point eh? haha. sat around trying to study. caught the DEP performance in the lobby. and then we headed to ju's for dinner. i'm so jealous. she can cook soooooo well. yum (:

wednesday. thirtiethaugust. that's the last of my papers (: hooray. the teacher even let us off early cos we were all done. managed to catch "sophie scholl" with gwee in town. haha. that was quite a disastrous day. it's like cumulative retribution for all the suanning i've done to people over the years lol. oh. managed to get my teachers day presents which i ate as well.

thursday.thirtyfirstaugust. teacher's day! went to watch the "the devil wears prada" with a bunch of drama and clb people (: i loved that movie. nice shoes (: went shopping with jo after. we're losers. we tried to get the candy empire. and didn't get off at the right stop. so we ended up going over the expressway and ended up at MARINE PARADE sobs.

friday.firstseptember. OC marathon!!! i like.

the three of us are secretly camwhores i swear

saturday-monday.second-third september. didn't do much really. just caught up on sleep. did some random shopping. and cleared up stuff around the house. pre-empting my habit of cleaning up whenever i have to study.

tuesday.fifthseptembermet roaf (:

had xiaolongbao. did some catching up. and shopped! wanted to meet jill and ivan after but it didn't really work out :/

wednesday.sixthseptember.chick flick marathon at my place! girlsonlypls . haha. but i swear the next time we have a chick flick marathon, jayne, jit and jill are banned. and i'm sure they won't mind. lol.

thursday.seventhseptemberskipped the class outing. went to the doctor's. found the best xiao long bao place in the world. then i watched half a season of grey's anatomy. fisherman's wharf!!! but since i still had the sore throat and cough..no fish and chips for me :( had meatballs instead. then it was off to SRT for Inventio after a mad rush to get tapes for them to film the show. drinks at asylum after. i still maintain that i was not drunk or high after my half a zombie. i swear! i'm usually like that what. anyway. i wrote a really good poem.
There was once octopi.
They wanted to fly in the sky.
But of course when they tried they had to die.
And hence they is now ink pie
yay. good right!

yuwei and i (:

jokoh cultivating her maternal instincts. hurhur.

friday.eigthseptember
got the hair done (:

saturday.ninthseptember drama lunch in school.

i couldn't resist and bought this shirt on tuesday. went around covering the picture and asked people 'what did the male penguin say to the female penguin?' hurhurhur. got to watch past productions which was hilarious. went to holland v. after and then it was home sweet home (:

And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around
- a lack of colour. deathcab for cutie

GP 1&2: not so bad. Cept that I didn't know what environmentalism meant, but I wrote that topic anyway.

Math1: decided to be a smart ass and master the trigo I lost so many marks for the last time. which meant sacrificing studying differentiation and integration totally. And what happens? Diff/int-THIRTYFREAKINGSIXMARKS. Trigo-four

Chem. paper 3: Well. didn't know that there were allocated sections until the night before. If not I would have just spotted sections instead of finishing all of them halfway :( Wasn't TOO bad still.

Bio paper 2: I chugged a can of coffee and a krispy kreme right before the paper. we had to sit there and wait for 10minutes. My hand wouldn't stop taptaptapping the table. Haha. but that paper was quite good. astroboy managed to cram a sizeable amount of information into my brain the night before.

Chem paper 2: zomg. Die. plus I had a crab/lobster/crustacean singing in my head the whole time.

Math paper 2: wish I had more time to study for this one. But oh well. difference between a 20 mark fail and a 44 mark fail is not difference at all really.

Bio paper 3: was a bitch. I've never had a bio paper I couldn't do. Like really really couldn't do. But this one. Zomg. I had to explain why caterpillars put on mass when it's hot, so I said that when it's hotter they respire more, and hence eat more leaves to get the water from it (coz they're on the plant they can't very well crawl to a lake for a sip). I was whining after the paper la x( i hate it when I whine. It's annoying. i go about 3 decibels higher. I wanted to kick myself.

Bio 1&Chem1&CLB how bad can these papers be eh?

so that's what the 2 months of blood sweat and tears cumulated in. we're really lucky we get to study in the studio, it's much quieter (: haha and a lot of retarded things happen there too. like playing Disney songs to cheer ourselves up, bad Mexican chicken and girl scout cookie jokes. Oddballs. Sea creature imitations. Rat pies and sucking leaves off trees with vacuum cleaners. And lot of other things I wish I had the time to blog about

oh yeah. and thanks to the various of people who helped me, kept me sane and taught me stuff (: and bought me food too :D
hearts many many to you!

*HUGS* TOTAL!

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